113b The Disappearance Of Black Cat (II)

Previous episode:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/04/113a-disappearance-of-black-cat-i-about.html

    Hello, my name is Huang Ru-Jun, a normal 17 years old girl, as normal as you can find everywhere. Although I am a Chinese Taoyundaonian, my family inhabit the Japanese zone from many many years ago. I can speak both Cantonese-Chinese and Japanese, but I score higher in Japanese, and most of my best friends are also Japanese. Sometimes I have the feeling that I am actually a Japanese, though I am not, haha. After all, I'm a Huang, not a Suzuki or Tanaga. My name always shows the difference between I and my friends...

    I am a high school girl, and I study in the Catholic Hanahara girls' high school of home economics-- the school that can be considered as a school for disciplining brides. Well, I'm not smart enough to go to the college. Besides, I have a Catholic family, so it's so natural for my parents to send me into a Catholic school. Of course, I am a sincere Catholic Christian, too. My parents teach me that I shall make myself to be faithful and pure from my childhood, and they help me carefully to keep the Spirit in me.

    However, as a Christian, I still have some surreal imaginations and illusions which aren't that Christian. For example, I have the feeling that there does exist witches and wizards, I don't know why. The weirdest illusional feeling of mine is that sometimes I can "leave" myself, I can observe myself outside me. The scene is so realistic such that I can't judge whether it is true or not.

    In such case, I can see my entire body, and I'm not sure that it is mine. I know that it is Huang Ru-Jun, but what is the Huang Ru-Jun to me? The Huang Ru-Jun consists of short limbs, thick shanks, chubby torso and broad hip, and other things like that. To me, I feel those components of Huang Ru-Jun don't just have their physical meanings, they also form the existence of Huang Ru-Jun.

    I can see this Huang Ru-Jun while she is walking, eating, talking, and even looking at herself. Humph? You say go to the toilet? Oh, don't mention that, please. Can you image the feeling of seeing some ugly thing coming out of your own body? That's very uncomfortable! The most incongruous feeling happens in the time when I go to church. I can see myself when I knee down and pray to the God. I am so religious and joyful when I enjoy the grace of God, and I do know it. But... maybe it's somehow unrespectful to say that, but when I see my heart is given away to others, even it's given to the Father, I still can't feel reconciled about it. I have the subtle emotion of wanting to grab my heart and bring it back to me. That's an incorrect emotion I know, but I can't stop it. Every time when I meet such case, I always cry hard. Dear Father, please forgive me...

    Okay! Stop talking about sad things. Had I said anything about my virtual friend? Sometimes I feel I do see a pair of disembodied legs around me. Those legs are blessed and empowered, they belong to a faithful holy lady, though I don't know who she is. I feel that she should be my best friend, if she really exists.

    Those legs can be the weapon for breaking the evil, can be the crucifix for protecting the good. Their owner is a kind and determinded, she devote herself to expel the demon, and she take care of me very gently. Perhaps she is an imaginary friend of mine, but I cherish our relation very much. If one day I can meet her, I will say thank you very much to her.

    Moreover, I even can see my parts while I still "stick on" myself-- I think those are my parts, don't ask me why. Those parts aren't in the same form of existed ones. For exmple, my virtual legs become long and slim, they are much more beautiful than my real legs.

    It seems that those virtual parts of me can act somehow autonomously. Very strange, isn't it? I will view those virtual parts as parteners of forming me if they are true. They support me in every aspect. It will be my honor of being the one who consists of them. Hey! Parteners! I am so pround of you all, can you come true one day?

113a The Disappearance Of Black Cat (I)

About the witch Black Cat and her real identity Huang Ru-Jun (黃 如君), please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-wonderful-island-where-tales-began.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html

    While Black Cat's legendary mother, Li Mei-Xian, was experiencing her most weird and torturous event if her life (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html), something was also happening to Black Cat suddenly. She anxiously found her complicated but intergraded properties was suffering deformation and dissolving gradually, and she couldn't do anything about that.

    "What's... what's happening to me? Oh, I feel I am being denied by... MYSELF?" Black Cat groaned. She also felt that bad thing happened to her mother, though she didn't know it completely. The connection from the surreal conceptual property of great graceful Taoist Li Mei-Xian to the surreal conceptual property of elegant mighty witch Black Cat was cut because Li Mei-Xian had been changed.

    In fact, Black Cat is not the true nature of her existence. It(the property of Black Cat) was created by will and bsed on those concepts delivered from the existence of "this" Li Mei-Xian. Now, the concept of the normal girl Huang Ru-Jun was taking herself back from Black Cat.

    Black Cat's components was split up and being transformed. Her symbol, the Gothic black dress, was "smeared" by the reality. Some transformed pieces of her started to be projected into the new reality.

    "So... Well, I know, I am rejected by my true self, right?" Black Cat murmured. All her components were transformed in to Huang's and reassembled into the normal girl in the new real world. Black Cat was going to be gone with her internal word (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cat-alone-part-witch-black-cat-is.html).

    "Understand. I always consider Huang Ru-Jun as my unnecessary property. However, I, Black Cat, is truly the unwanted one, right?" Black Cat smiled sorrowfully. The girl Huang Ru-Jun is way too ordinary. Her figure is a bit short and chubby, , her mind is not modest enough, her head didn't keep a lot of meaningful knowledge, her dress sense is somehow tacky, and her limbs are thick and rough. The girl didn't like those characteristics of herself at all, so she made herself to be the elegant witch Black Cat, but finally the witch Black Cat didn't like the girl Huang Ru-Jun in-itself. When Huang Ru-Jun was covered with Black Cat, she considered herself as Black Cat and denied the Huang Ru-Jun. Today, Huang Ru-Jun would come back, and Black Cat would disappear.

    "??? What... This is... me?" Huang awoke in the new reality. To her, the reality is continuous, and Black Cat never exists. She looked at her body parts coriously, just like she had never seen them...

501 Magical Android: Creating Myself

    Kuo Su-Fen(郭 淑芬) is a magical android, but her best friend Peng Hao-Dong didn't believe it. One day, Su-Fen  invited Hao-Dong to her home.

    "Hello, Su-Feng. I'm coming... Wow! What the hell? You... you're..."
 
    "Hi, Hao-Dong, don't be afraid, I'm fine."

    "But!... You... Oh my god! What happened to you!?"

    "I am improving myself. As I told you, I am a magical android."

    "Magical android! Okay! I know it's true now! But who built you? You live alone!"

    "No other one who built me, I was created by myself."

    "Hey! Come on, not again! How could you create yourself before your birth? that's totally nonsensical!"

    "Hao-Dong, you don't believe me again. You see, my function had been ceased, and I was dismantled for modifying. But I am still talking to you, and that's me who is modifying my own self. So, why couldn't I build me?"

    "Oh~ Su-Feng, you confuse me totally! My head aches!"

    "Well, let me explain. When I decided to build myself as a human girl, I came back by a transience before my birth, and I had my existence so that I could start to build me. As I made new portion of me, I was also being changed. The process was very exciting and comfortable. For example, during the forming of my head, my mind had been enhanced step by step as I constructed my brain more completely, and it would feed back to make me more capable to build myself. I especially enjoyed making of my heart! The progress made me feel subtle emotions and warm affections gradually, and finally I have such a delicate wonderful heart!"

    "That sounds reasonable... Wait, before your birth, what were you?"

    "I was nothing before my birth."

    "NOTHING?"

    "Yeah."

    "Err.. All right, I got it, though not completely. So, why do you let me to know your secret and show me your truth?"

    "Hao-Dong, that's not a secret for you XD. I want to let you know what I really am. You are a special one to me. Besides, haven't I told you that I am improving myself? I will like you to join, let's improve me together!"

    "Let me join you for improving you? What do you expect for that?"

    "I...I... Well, I expect you for making me as the girl that you will like >_<! You can assist me with reshaping my face, my legs, my arms, my torso; or my head, my heart, everything that you want my parts to be. Then please reassemble those parts you like to be a new me by your hands. This time, I want to be the wanted girl created by you, your lover that you make XD!"

909 Fake Angel, Hat Monster

Story contributed by Al Naga

    On the Island of Taoyundao, there are magical items available for sale, but one should be careful. Some items are cursed, cruel practical jokes by the spellcasters on that island that sometimes fall in the hands of the unwary. Sometimes the items are not just cursed, but malevolent...

    A-Ya was a young girl fresh off the boat from Taiwan who was recruited for a her new job at a local bird sanctuary. A-Ya loved birds, and often fantasized about flying like them. As she headed for her new job, she noticed all the women on the island either wore hats or covered themselves with parasols from the hot sun that beat down on the tropical island. The island of Taoyundao had appealed to her, as she heard it was much like her native Taiwan as it did not lack for any tech available in her own home country, except in a much more tropical climate. But A-Ya wasn't prepared for this hot rays from the sun, even though she had taken precautions to protect her sensitive skin with sun screen.

    There a booth on the street that was covered with parasols, which showed A-Ya an convenient solution to her problem. The spoke to the store keeper at the booth and quickly bargained for a pretty parasol with flowers and vines painted along the boarders, then something caught her eye, a strange colored hat that seemed to be both purple and blue at once. "How much for that hat?", A-Ya asked. The store keeper looked at A-Ya, unsure what to do as he was an amateur magic researcher, and discovered the hat in the street and suspected it was magical in nature. However he recognized the opportunity to make a good sale, when he saw it, "50 Taoyundao Dollars." he replied. "FIFTY TD!" A-Ya cried, but she quickly counter offered, "Thirty!" The store keeper mused on it and then replied, "Thirty Five and it's yours!" A-Ya quickly paid up and put the hat on her head as she went off to her new job.

    A-Ya goes home, gets the shock of her life when while holding the hat over her right hand, her hand disappears leaving a stump. A-Ya screams, and drops the hat on the ground. A-Ya picks up the hat as her house keys had Bao-Yun in her right hand, only to be horrified as her right hand is now attached to the side walk. A-Ya falls down, but suddenly realizes she can still feel her right hand, and even uses it to make the keys its holding jiggle.

    A-Ya walks up to her hand that is attached to the sidewalk, curiously places her strange hat on it. Then she picks up the hat and the hand disappears. She places the hat on her head in disbelief, then she feels her hand again. She takes off her hat and the hand is now on top of her head! She then gets and idea, and place the hat on her head again, which makes her hand vanish from the top of her head. She then places the hat on the stump of her right wrist, and the removes the hat, showing her hand is now restored to it's proper place on her arm. 

    A-Ya sits down after getting into her apartment, tired from her ordeal. She gets ideas to try the hat out, transposes her body parts on different surfaces. Finally puts herself back together. Gets an idea of taking the hat to her work.

    In the morning, A-Ya greets Bao-Yu, but restrains herself from telling her about the hat. A-Ya goes to Larry's cage and uses the hat to borrows his wings, which she attaches to her shoulder blades. A-Ya is so excited that she remade herself into an angel, and to her surprise she can fly with Larry's wings. A-Ya is concerned that she's not as beautiful as she sees as angel should be. So she calls in her beautiful assistant Bao-Yu, setting up a situation that will show the hat is obviously magical: by placing her legs and her head in flower pots. Bao-Yu comes into the lab and she sees the disassembled A-Ya and spots the hat. Bao-Yu warns A-Ya to put herself back together right away! The hat is an evil hat that corrupts spirits and steals bodies. A-Ya denies that's what happening, but the hat begins to laugh with evil laughter.

    A-Ya tries to remove the hat, but she loses control of her torso, and the hat flies away with that part of A-Ya's body. A-Ya cries that she deserved this to happen, as she lost Larry's wings and desired to steal parts from Bao-Yu's body. But Bao-Yu offers to care for the disassemble A-Ya, which helps A-Ya comes to accept her new situation.

112d You Raise Myself Up (IV)

Episode 1,2,3:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112b-you-raise-myself-up-ii-episode-1.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112c-you-raise-myself-up-iii-episode-1.html
   
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Mei-Xian is Mei-Xian after all, the greatest Taoist never would be forever trapped by anyone. The crushed existence of the humiliated Huang Xian-Mei was mapped to another branch of diverse sequences of events automatically to receive repairing from Li Mei-Xian who had never met Feng. Xian-Mei's parts was washed, and her properties were nullified. Spaghetti-strap, short skirt and flashy heeled sandals all were ripped away from Xian-Mei's body, and it started to be decomposed and reconstructed as the original Li Mei-Xian's body.

    Mei-Xian watched her body which was under reconstructing, she had a complicated emotion about herself. There existed many things of herself that she still wasn't conscious of, and she still had hidden complexes(about the Huang's part of herself), lusts and desires that she believed that they were already vanished once. she really didn't understand herself as well as she thought.

    Furthermore, Mei-Xian reminisced what she had experienced on her poor self since hundreds of years ago. She accepted those terrible events happened on herself smoothly for breakthrough of reaching the Way, but had she pushed herself forward too much? How could herself endure so many tortures for accomplishing her purpose? Herself couldn't complain to her, but Mei-Xian knew herself was the only one who kept company with her during her whole journey from the beginning; she should treasure herself.

Mei-Xian was grateful to have herself accompany her.

    Mei-Xian had reassembled and converted her broken self successfully, Huang Xian-Mei had turned back to be Li Mei-Xian, everything seemed to be settled down; Mei-Xian was still that mighty and elegant Mei-Xian, Huang Xian-Mei's tawdriness had not made any influence on her.

    However, did Mei-Xian really let Huang Xian-Mei just disappear and leave nothing behind?

    Sure not. Mei-Xian have learned a lot from Xian-Mei. Now she knows that she has to accept and tolerate everything of herself even it's unexpected. The wicked wizard Feng also had taught her the skill for digging her hidden self out. Usually Mei-Xian's heart will keep Mei-Xian to be graceful and elegant, but she can manipulate her own heart to let it allow for transforming of herself now.

    Before a transformation, Mei-Xian will project her mind to form a virtual projection. She can't manipulate her own heart, but the virtual projection isn't her. Her mind is regarded as it's asking for manipulating "a heart", and the virtual projection will be regarded as another one whom is manipulating Mei-Xian's heart. That's Mei-Xian's new way for liberating Xian-Mei from her existed frame!

Manipulating her own heart for transforming herself.

    As a Chinese proverb says: "A mountain seen is a mountain being, a mountain seen is no mountain being, a mountain seen remains a mountain being. (見山是山,見山不是山,見山還是山)". Mei-Xian thought that she must terminate unstable distorted properties of herself to find and manifest her essential property of her eternal entity at first, but she understands that those unwanted properties aren't perturbations which dust her true entity; they are also parts of her and she has to keep on going with them on the road of reaching the Way.

    This time, Mei-Xian will rise herself up!

112c You Raise Myself Up (III)

Episode 1&2:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112b-you-raise-myself-up-ii-episode-1.html
 
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Mei-Xian's new integrated body was forming, all of her parts was gathering together. While her body was almost completed, Mei-Xian's head separated from her body. She looked at the cross-section of her neck and noticed that her internal was rolling in the deep. It was because properties of original Mei-Xian were still struggling against the new Mei-Xian. To them, the new Mei-Xian is way too vulgar and lustful so that is totally unacceptable. However, they were powerless to resist.

    When Mei-Xian's unrestful internal finally calmed down, her desires were crystallized into a snake-like being. It was used to link new Mei-Xian's mind with her nature of being a human female, as the snake connected Mei-Xian's head with her own body.

Mei-Xian looked at the forming of her new self with smile.

    Mei-Xian smiled at the wizard, and asked: "Well, the new me is almost completed. Since I am transformed for you, at least, would you tell me about yourself and why did you do that before I recombine with my body to become the me you want?"

    The wizard sighed deeply with grief. He told Mei-Xian about his story. The wizard was once a Taoist actually, his name was Feng Yi-De(馮 易德), and he was even older than Mei-Xian. Feng's father came the Li's Taoist family, and he became a son-in-law and lived in his wife's home, so Yi-De inherited his mother's surname, Feng. But Feng Yi-De still viewed himself as a member of the glorious Li's family, and he entered the Li's family and became a disciple to learn Taoism while he grew up.

    Mei-Ling (Mei-Xian's previous name) was a famous talent even while she was very young, and her personality was deemed to be perfect as a great Taoist by members of the Li's family. Such a wonderful girl would become the symbol of the Li's family in the future, and Feng was also very proud of Mei-Ling. "I have the same blood with her!" Feng always thought so, and he was deeply attracted when he met Mei-Ling. It could be said that Feng would sacrifice himself for Mei-Ling if needed. She was his queen, his goddess.

    However, Feng's heart was torn when she knew that Mei-Ling's mother came from the Huang's Taoist family. Feng's maternal grandmother was also a Huang, and he hated her very much. His maternal grandmother was selfish and sanctimonious, and she often went mad easily. To Feng Yi-De, that was also the standard image of the whole Huang's family, so that his maternal grandmother was the sinner who brought the despicable blood to him. Feng cursed that blood everyday, and he tried to pretend that he was totally unrelated with it. Mei-Ling was his atonement, her perfectness rescue Feng out from the hateful reality. So when Feng knew that Mei-Ling's mother was also a Huang, his self-esteem was thoroughly demolished. He left the Li's family and went to find the darkest side of the world, finally he became a wicked wizard.

    Several years ago, Feng found that Mei-Ling had turned herself to be Mei-Xian, his dry heart was excited gain. Mei-Ling was a gifted perfect girl, but Mei-Xian is an elegant wonderful lady! Feng started to collect information about Mei-Xian. When he knew what Mei-Xian had experienced those days, he was enchanted by but also felt disgusted at the same one. What a conflicting woman! The affection made Feng feel uneasy, he decided to resolve it.

    Feng's idea was transforming this Mei-Xian to be another Mei-Xian who is not as high-class as the Mei-Xian right now. He wanted vulgar emotions and lusts arise from Mei-Xian again, such that he could make Mei-Xian tawdry. Feng needed to manifest properties of the Huang's on Mei-Xian so that he could have the same corrupted part with Mei-Xian had. Yes, he loved Mei-Xian, but the one he loved had the composition he hated in her existence, so he wanted to taint his lovable one. It's such an exciting idea to Feng.

    After conversation, the new Mei-Xian had a twisted emotion about Feng and herself right now. "What the hell! He made me to be a woman he despises!" Mei-Xin thought. But this Mei-Xian was also the one who Feng loved her to be. Mei-Xian humphed and said: "Well, that's fine. Since this me makes the Huang's composition of me to be significant, so this me shall not be Li Mei-Xian anymore. I will take Huang as my surname, and my name will be Xian-Mei (仙美, Heavenly Beauty) for meeting the property of this flashy me as you wish. Humph!"

    Feng laughed out loudly. "Ha! Ha! Huang Xian-Mei, right? okay! This name fits you really well! Now come back to your body such that Huang Xian-Mei can come to this world! Go!"

    The crystallized snake stretched to Xian-Mei's head, and she felt that her mind and heart were reconnecting each other. A new she was forming, she would be a completed flashy girl Huang Xian-Mei soon--

Hello world! Huang Xian-Mei is here!

    "Wow! This is the new me? Interesting! Feng, your wish is realized now, what will you do with this despised girl but you love next?"

    Feng Hugged Huang Xian-Mei, teardrops slid out of his dried-up eyes. He kissed every part of Xian-Mei's body, then he held Xian-Mei up and say: "Xian-Mei, I... I want to... DEMOLISH YOU! Crush! Hahaha!"

    Xian-Mei was frozen suddenly, then her existence was erode from internal by lusts and emotions which embodied by Feng's spell. An evil flower made from her desires of being pretty and charming bloomed on her neck top, and her mind was repelled by her body. All of her parts were monsterlized, and Feng sent demolished Xian-Mei to a forbidden cave.

Monsterlized Huang Xian-Mei walking in the cave.

    "Great! Huang, you fits this disgusting cave the best! My real wish is to expel you from my honorable Li Mei-Xian, but that's totally unreasonable! You don't deserve the Li's glory, living with monsters is your future!"

    Later Feng left the cave. He exhausted all of his energy, and he was satisfied since he had spoiled his lovable traitor's existence. He died in the same day.

112b You Raise Myself Up (II)

Episode 1:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
 
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    After receiving the wizard's wish, Mei-Xian's existence was broken into pieces, and a wicked deity emerged from them. The deity picked up some of those pieces of Mei-Xian and began to decompose them. When he was decomposing a piece, he was also casting a new piece made from decomposed piece gradually. Those new pieces of Mei-Xian owned different proclivities compared with old ones'. Mei-Xian never thought that proclivities of herself could be changed such easily, she was in a panic. She was especially shocked when the deity transformed her classical formal hi-heel into a flashy sandal. While Mei-Xian's foot was put into that sandal in poor taste, she was frightened.

    "Do you... really want me to be... such a woman? I'll be totally changed, and the Mei-Xian you like will be cancelled. WHY??" Mei-Xian expressed her concerns to the wizard by her eyes, she begged him to stop.

    However, the wizard didn't stop his wish. The deity called Mei-Xian's heart out and enchanted it. The wizard's wish became a virtual wicked cross and it was attached on Mei-Xian's heart, he took use of the christianity of Mei-Xian's torso. The wicked cross worked like the password of Mei-Xian's heart, it accessed and altered Mei-Xian's emotions and affections without any resistance. Mei-Xian had nothing to do with her captured self, she could just wait and see what would happen to her next.

Transformation of some pieces of Mei-Xian's existence.

    When the deity completed transformation of all selected pieces of Mei-Xian, he disappeared. Mei-Xian's converted heart started to emit magical power automatically to connect Mei-Xian's transformed pieces. Mei-Xian's mind was also reconstructed out of her dried-up original head, so she could turn to receive her transformation happily. She noticed that her unknown another side of female nature was extracted out and formed a virtual female figure. Mei-Xian smiled at that, she knew that was the naughty girl hidden inside her.

Mei-Xian's transformed pieces got to connect with each other.

    The girl-like figure flied into the center of the Mei-Xian right now, then a torso-like figure emerged between Mei-Xian's transformed pieces. The new Mei-Xian was forming, and existences of those un-transformed pieces were attracted to the new Mei-Xian for completing her--

Forming of the new Mei-Xian.

    "Wow~ Nifty spaghetti-strap and naughty short skirt! And don't forget wild heeled sandals! Those things will dress up my body parts and become their properties, such that I will become a pretty and sexy lady! I do wanna go bad and can't wait for the completing of new me longer!"