112d You Raise Myself Up (IV)

Episode 1,2,3:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112b-you-raise-myself-up-ii-episode-1.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112c-you-raise-myself-up-iii-episode-1.html
   
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Mei-Xian is Mei-Xian after all, the greatest Taoist never would be forever trapped by anyone. The crushed existence of the humiliated Huang Xian-Mei was mapped to another branch of diverse sequences of events automatically to receive repairing from Li Mei-Xian who had never met Feng. Xian-Mei's parts was washed, and her properties were nullified. Spaghetti-strap, short skirt and flashy heeled sandals all were ripped away from Xian-Mei's body, and it started to be decomposed and reconstructed as the original Li Mei-Xian's body.

    Mei-Xian watched her body which was under reconstructing, she had a complicated emotion about herself. There existed many things of herself that she still wasn't conscious of, and she still had hidden complexes(about the Huang's part of herself), lusts and desires that she believed that they were already vanished once. she really didn't understand herself as well as she thought.

    Furthermore, Mei-Xian reminisced what she had experienced on her poor self since hundreds of years ago. She accepted those terrible events happened on herself smoothly for breakthrough of reaching the Way, but had she pushed herself forward too much? How could herself endure so many tortures for accomplishing her purpose? Herself couldn't complain to her, but Mei-Xian knew herself was the only one who kept company with her during her whole journey from the beginning; she should treasure herself.

Mei-Xian was grateful to have herself accompany her.

    Mei-Xian had reassembled and converted her broken self successfully, Huang Xian-Mei had turned back to be Li Mei-Xian, everything seemed to be settled down; Mei-Xian was still that mighty and elegant Mei-Xian, Huang Xian-Mei's tawdriness had not made any influence on her.

    However, did Mei-Xian really let Huang Xian-Mei just disappear and leave nothing behind?

    Sure not. Mei-Xian have learned a lot from Xian-Mei. Now she knows that she has to accept and tolerate everything of herself even it's unexpected. The wicked wizard Feng also had taught her the skill for digging her hidden self out. Usually Mei-Xian's heart will keep Mei-Xian to be graceful and elegant, but she can manipulate her own heart to let it allow for transforming of herself now.

    Before a transformation, Mei-Xian will project her mind to form a virtual projection. She can't manipulate her own heart, but the virtual projection isn't her. Her mind is regarded as it's asking for manipulating "a heart", and the virtual projection will be regarded as another one whom is manipulating Mei-Xian's heart. That's Mei-Xian's new way for liberating Xian-Mei from her existed frame!

Manipulating her own heart for transforming herself.

    As a Chinese proverb says: "A mountain seen is a mountain being, a mountain seen is no mountain being, a mountain seen remains a mountain being. (見山是山,見山不是山,見山還是山)". Mei-Xian thought that she must terminate unstable distorted properties of herself to find and manifest her essential property of her eternal entity at first, but she understands that those unwanted properties aren't perturbations which dust her true entity; they are also parts of her and she has to keep on going with them on the road of reaching the Way.

    This time, Mei-Xian will rise herself up!