174 The Capricious CatWitch Black Cat:
As the progressing of Ayase pushing Mei-Xian out of her "Oumae state" and back to be Taoist Li Mei-Xian ( https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/10/172a-ayase-mei-xian-self-battling-i.html ), Black Cat is also trying to reintegrate her chaotic self. She has three selves: the mighty and elegant witch Black Cat, the delicate Christian girl Huang Ru-Jun, and her most unwanted self, the earthly normal girl Huang Ru-Jun. However, she knows that the latest one is the realest one, and that fact disturbs her a lot ( https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/05/164-vipassana-witch-black-cat.html ).
Yeah, the normal Huang Ru-Jun is chubby, short and mediocre, but she is the reality of Black Cat, and she finally comes. Her bloated legs with vulgar shoes, her sturdy arms, her wide face, her incompetent brain and timid heart, her beliefs without speculation, and her surname Huang, Black Cat is afraid of everything of the real one of herself, but she can only accept her reality.
Black Cat is inspecting and feeling everything of her true self, everything. She understands that she has to get herself back, and that doesn't mean she must give up others of herself. Since Mei-Xain does exist in this magical world as her mother, Black Cat and the delicate Huang Ru-Jun also can exist. All of her selves make up.
Black Cat gets herself liberated. She can decide to present any part of her to be the part belongs to any one of her selves. Even she is in the mixture state ( https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2017/10/135-mixture-witch-black-cat.html ), she is still free.