126 Encounter Her True Self

About Black Cat (Huang Ru-Jun), please refer to
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-wonderful-island-where-tales-began.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
Event of "The Disappearance Of Black Cat":
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/04/113a-disappearance-of-black-cat-i-about.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/05/113b-disappearance-of-black-cat-ii.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/05/113c-disappearance-of-black-cat-iii.htm

    After the event of "the disappearance of Black Cat", Black Cat realized that she isn't the true one, even the Huang Ru-Jun whom she was transformed from isn't; the real Huang Ru-Jun from the disappearance event just is her original self. Though finally she had come back to "this" reality, she would not forget the truth. The real Huang Ru-Jun wasn't the self that she wanted herself to be, but she couldn't avoid it. Black Cat had to encounter her true self in this reality. She withdrew her "Black Cat" property away from her true self part by part, and projected her self awareness as Black Cat outside her body for observing. In a short time, her head and legs had been turned back to be the real Huang Ru-Jun's parts, and the "core" (central body part) was still Black Cat's.

    Black Cat was concentrating on accessing, controlling and manipulating her transformed parts carefully. She had very freak (if not bad) feeling about those parts. Properties of those parts were pretty different from original ones. For example, the real Ru-Jun's head held the self awareness as a religious Catholic Christian, but Black Cat is a witch. She could turn herself to be the altered Ru-Jun (the Huang Ru-Jun of "this" reality) because altered Ru-Jun was her hidden property (dominated by Agatha, http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/012-black-cat-alone-part-b-episode-3.html), but the original Ru-Jun had not thing to do witch Black Cat. Without Black Cat, she would be a normal pious girl. Her faithful thought inside that head made Black Cat uneasy and uncomfortable since she is a witch. She just could put the head aside.

    The "real" legs brought Black Cat a new challenge. They were short and chubby, and not shaped in beautiful curves. They wore a pair of vulgar sandals, and many desires were deposited on them. Not elegant, not delicate, not beautiful, even not graceful, but they were the true parts of herself. Being one with those legs provided Black Cat a strange feeling of exciting by including low-class parts into her prideful ego. She was practicing, practicing for being her whole self.

    "I have a foolish true head, a pair of funny true legs, a unwanted true surname Huang, a bound true heart occupied by Christian beliefs and a normal girl's desires, and who knows what I will have with my true torso and arms. I am surrounded, shall I surrender? Oh my, why can't I just be the witch Black Cat? Well, Huang Ru-Jun is the true me, it will be better for me to find a good way to get along with Huang Ru-Jun... Sigh..." Black Cat murmured.

    Later, Black Cat tried to "turn off" Black Cat over her whole self to be real Ru-Jun directly. However, the property of real Huang Ru-Jun was irreconcilable with the property of being Black Cat. Parts of Black Cat denied each other, the clash sometimes made Black Cat "malfunctioned" in the real world. This is a case--

    The head denied the body as a part of the one who the head belonged to, same as the headless body. Neither Black Cat nor real Huang Ru-Jun could get whole set of parts for forming one of them for a while.

    Of course, finally she was rescued by the mighty Mei-Xian again ;).