167 Integration

Witch Black Cat:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-wonderful-island-where-tales-began.html
This story follows up "164 Vipassana":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/05/164-vipassana-witch-black-cat.html

    Black Cat attempts to reunite with herself. She has to combine her witch part with her common Catholic girl part.

    Both of them resists each other, but Black Cat, or Huang Ru-Jun, needs both of them to be a whole. Sometimes something may escape from her internal, and she must find the way to get it back to her.

    Really not easy, herself is full of paradox. However, she definitely will make it.

166f Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (06)

Previous episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166e-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-05.html
First episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166a-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-01.html


    Ayase came back the real world as Aragaki Ayase who was operated on Oumae Ayase. She explained that to the Order. She had solved her own problem, time for her to recapture her dearest mother, Ichimu.

    Ayase didn't plan to escape. Since she could face her Oumae self directly, surely she could face her Oumae mother. She asked the Order to reconstruct her mother's dismantled body and revive her mother's identity as Oumae Ichimu. The Ichimu's head opened its eyes and stared at Ayase emotionlessly. She could activate her own body instantly and begin to manipulate the property of Ayase's body.

    Ayase told members of the Order not to worry about her. She said that she believed she can rouse her mother's maternity about her. She started to communicate with Ichimu's identity.

    Ichimu's identity didn't say anything, then it exposed Ichimu's monster-like Oumae property to Ayase as if it was questioning Ayase about her perception of Ichimu's Oumae.

    "I will embrace all of you, definitely, dear mother," Ayase walked to Ichimu's head and picked up it, "both of us are Oumae, so why do I reject you? Will you entrust yourself to me?"

    "Won't you want Ichimu to be the Aragaki Ichimu, your mother in the Aragaki family?" Ichimu's identity asked without words.

    "You're Oumae Ichimu absolutely," Ayase smiled, "but Aragaki Ichimu can be realized on you, my dearest mother."

    "You really understand the Oumae family and Ichimu well, Ayase,"  Ichimu's identity replied, " that was you who replaced the open-toe shoes on my feet with a new pair of elegant shoes, right? You do know the point, you even understand the subtle difference of characteristic settings between Aragaki Ichimu and Oumae Ichimu. You have won, Ayase. My body got set from its feet as if it is Aragaki Ichimu's body."

"I know your original peep-toe heels belong to Hwang Young Bi, the one whom the Oumae family wanted you to act as. The difference between Aragaki Ichimu and Oumae Ichimu is that despite both of them wear pumps, but Aragaki Ichimu wants the more modest ones. Those inner side-removed shoes belong to Oumae Ichimu. My mother Aragaki Ichimu is very modest. Welcome back, my dear mother."

    Ayase put Ichimu's head back onto her body, and Aragaki Ichimu got formed in front of Ayase. She began to cry because those terriblt things happened to her and her daughter. She also apologized to Ayase for her truth as being Oumae Ichimu. Ayase hugged her mother and comforted her. They are Oumae, but they can make themselves to be Aragaki.
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    The Order continued on fighting the Oumae family. Ayase and Ichimu didn't give up their own Oumae (they also couldn't), they made use of their Oumae. For example, Ayase may disintegrate her identity and reduce herself into Oumae body parts, and her parts may be put into another Oumae family member's hands for her/him to sense Ayase.

    That Oumae family member's parts may be resonated automatically by Ayase's parts. Her/his ego may be arisen from the resonance. Ayase will put her beliefs and values into other Oumae family members through such a process.

    The Oumae family won't be destroyed; it may be taken over by Ayase with Ichimu's help in the future.

    If the Oumae family is an ant nest, then Ayase will be its queen.

-FIN-

166e Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (05)

Previous episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166d-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-04.html
First episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166a-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-01.html

    However, Ayase didn't just belong to the Oumae. You can say Aragaki Ayase is the fake one, but she still ever existed. Aragaki Ayase is a phenomenon which gets embodied in the special operating on Oumae Ayase's parts; when the  phenomenon exists, the person Aragaki Ayase is real. For example, Aragaki Ayase does hate something, does love something. That hatred and love belong to a real girl.

    Furthermore, Ayase knew that no matter Aragaki or Oumae Ayase she is, both Ayase are Catholic. The difference is that the belief power of Aragaki Ayase rooted in love and the Oumae one's rooted in hatred. However, the hatred just belonged to their original ancestor, Amakusa Shiro ( https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2016/12/018b-oumae-ichimu-ayases-ideal.html ). All body parts owned by the Oumae are components and devices driven by the spiritual power of Amakusa Shiro's hatred, but Amakusa Shiro doesn't really exist nowadays. Despite to suspect the meaning of Amakusa Shiro is a taboo for all Oumae, but the Order had set the barrier field to protect Ayase (and Ichimu), she could go further on exploring and manipulating her own self. She rewrote the cognition about Amakusa Shiro's status and will for changing the behavior of her Oumae. That is, she made her Oumae to permit she to think and do anything about herself.

    Then, Ayase redefined her body as the part of love (her blessed legs) and the part of hatred (her central body which stories Oumae's hatred in her heart). They were so different, but they also belonged to the same one; they could form the Oumae Ayase, they also could form the Aragaki Ayase.

    Ayase looked her separated parts, and she tried to pull them together. She must have an integrated body, even it just could be the Oumae body. Finally, she got it.

    " Hello, Oumae Ayase's body, nice to meet you..." Ayase directly faced her Oumae body at first time. She accepted her Oumae body, and her Oumae body accepted her. No taboo for them to communicate with each other, no secret between both of them.

    Ayase came back to her body, she got herself completed. Congratulations!

-to be continued-

166d Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (04)

Previous episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166c-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-03.html
First episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166a-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-01.html

    Yes, Ayase had to face the reality, face her unwanted self. She told the Order everything she knew about herself and the Oumae family. Her Oumae sensed that she seemed like as if she prepared to betray the Oumae and acted against her will, but she forced her Oumae to obey her with her full power. Then Ayase submitted her plan to the Order.

    Later, the Order dismantled Ichimu's body for executing Ayase's plan. They let the Divine Guitarist handle the plan. Ayase also let the Order separate her head from her body, then she loosed her control over herself to let herself be turned into Oumae. At the same time, the Order deactivated both of Ayase's parts.

    Two sets of body parts of the Oumae family were under the Order's control. The Order made them can access each other restrictedly and monitored the process.

    In the Oumae family, Ayase's body parts were subject to Ichimu's body parts since the former was produced from the latter. So, the Order could manipulate Ayase's separated body parts through Ichimu's. Ayase got disintegrated as first, and she would be rebuilt from the communications between Ayase's and Ichimu's parts.

    In Ayase's inner virtual world, her will almost reassembled her spirit pieces into herself. That one was Oumae Ayase, but this spiritual existence was directed by Aragaki Ayase's will. "She" stood in from of her origin: the one who came from Oumae Ichimu's belly.

    It was the most suffering moment. Ayase's spiritual existence got broken for hundreds times before she could face it. However, she had to accept her true self after all.

-to be continued-

166c Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (03)

Previous episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166b-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-02.html
First episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166a-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-01.html

    Back to several days ago. The Order got the information about an outpost of the Oumae family, and soon they organized an assault team. They attacked the site and cleared up it, then they found Oumae Ichimu's disassembled body there. Her parts was undergoing reset for acting another person, Hwang Young Bi (黃英妃), a Korean lady. She would be set as the mate of an important leader of an Influential Korean church. Her head was receiving settings of new identity when the assault team got her.

    Ayase's body parts reacted with Ichimu's while she was tried her best to keep herself as Aragaki. She also felt sad since she knew how powerful her mother was, and she got controlled by others so easily. The Order let the Divine Guitarist be in charge of Ichimu's body. She studied Ichimu's body for realizing the internal operating of it. Later, she got the way for manipulating Ichimu's body parts. The Divine Guitarist modified Ichimu's Catholic faith of her heart to let it blame itself. She "taught" Ichimu's heart the "correct" Catholic belief instead of the Oumae's version such that it would listen to her. Ichimu's head got lost between the two identities of Oumae Ichimu and Hwang Young Bi, like a pale face built on an broken robot.

    Way too depressing for Ayase to see that. However, she couldn't do anything but sustaining her fake existence barely. The Order already knew Ayase's situation, but they didn't discover the truth to her before they could seize Ichimu for preventing Ichimu to take back her daughter. They couldn't take the risk of losing such an elite exorcist. The whole team went back to their base with captured Oumae body parts and Ayase. They also helped Ayase to suppress her Oumae constituents.

    Ayase woke up in the next morning. Members of the Order just disintegrated Ichimu's body for analyzing it. Ayase walked to them and asked them to hand her mother's head and heart to her. She brought those parts to a bench and sat down.

    Ayase looked at her mother's deactivated head and heart sadly. She even couldn't judge that she was Aragaki Ayase or Oumae Ayase at that time since "her Oumae" was still trying to resonate with Ichimu's deactivated parts. Ayase stretch out her hands to touch Ichimu's face, and she felt just like that her hands told her they wanted to leave her and go to the Ichimu's side.

    " I... I have to face my mother, face myself, and... face my Ou... Oumae..." Ayase murmured.

-to be continued-

166b Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (02)

Previous episode:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/06/166a-ayase-ichimu-aragaki-or-oumae-01.html

    Ayase, or I should say Aragaki Ayase, is an exorcist. She belongs to a secret Catholic Order. There are many other tough and mighty exorcists in the Order.

    One day, a fellow from the Order came to Ayase. She told Ayase that another powerful exorcist, the Divine Guitarist had captured a special enemy, and it was necessary for Ayase to meet that enemy. She would lead Ayase to the enemy.

    When they almost arrived the site, the fellow asked Ayase to embody her blessed legs into the Holy Crosier and the Sacred Sword. Ayase got curious about that and asked why. "Oumae" The fellow just answered her with a word.

    Oumae? Isn't it her mother's original surname whom Ayase is proud of? Ayase also had a negative impression about that name. She always considered her mother as an Aragaki rather than an Oumae. In fact, she would prefer to forget that name.

    Ayase had an ominous felling. She detached her legs and turned them into the Holy Crosier and the Sacred Sword. The door got opened, time to see the enemy.

    "Ah... Oh... Oh my..." Ayase was trembling. Her blessed legs were trying their best to emit power for protecting her from being affected by her internal heterogeneous power, and her existence was almost torn apart.

    Yes, the enemy was her dearest mother, Ichimu, Oumae Ichimu.

    The Divine Guitarist was standing beside Ichimu. Ichimu's head was separated from her body, and her headless body was roaring. The Order had set a divine barrier field for preventing Ichimu's body parts to access the Oumae family.

    Seeing the fainting fact, Ayase got reminded that she is also an Oumae immediately. Her left hand was pressing a central point of her own body like pressing an ultimate button unconsciously for stopping her to be converted by herself. Yes, she actually is Oumae Ayase, but she still wanted herself to stay in the status of being Aragaki Ayase.

    What a cruel reality!

-to be continued-

166a Ayase & Ichimu: Aragaki Or Oumae (01)

This story fellows "129 Ayase: From Aragaki To Oumae", "142 Ayase: Disarmed", "157 Ayase: First Head-Off", and "162 Ayase: Be An Oumae":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2017/04/129-ayase-from-aragaki-to-oumae-about.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2018/05/142-ayase-disarmed-this-story-fellows.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/02/157-ayase-first-head-off-this-story.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/04/162-ayase-be-oumae-this-story-fellows.html

About Ayase's mother and the Oumae family, please read:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2016/12/018a-oumae-ichimu-ayases-ideal.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2016/12/018b-oumae-ichimu-ayases-ideal.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2016/12/018c-oumae-ichimu-ayases-ideal.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2016/12/018d-oumae-ichimu-ayases-ideal.html

And the "adult version" of Ayase comes from this series "Afternoon Talk":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2015/07/
More instructions about Aragaki/Oumae Ayase:
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2018/06/145-ayase-how-to-use-this-story-fellows.html

    After the Oumae family having Mei-Xian, they became more mighty, but the unity of the family also got undermined. Body parts which belong to the Oumae family can't keep the coherence between them perfectly. They are "infected" (https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2019/03/160-great-infection-this-story-follows.html).

    This situation also affects Ayase. Recently she slightly felt something wrong about herself, but she couldn't figure it out clearly. That was because her Oumae body couldn't work seamlessly to support her as being Aragaki Ayase. She sensed a gap between she and herself.

    However, when she turned back to watch herself, she still couldn't see anything strange. She questioned her body, but her body didn't reply. She just could look at her partners helplessly like a malfunctioned robot.

    Of course, her partners also couldn't see anything wrong. Thy tried to comfort Ayase by telling her that nothing happened to her.

    As time went by, Ayase felt that her basic constitution got weaken day by day. Her composition left her gradually. Only a vacant frame of herself left for her.

    Finally, the destined day came to Ayase...

-to be continued-