135 Mixture

Witch Black Cat:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-wonderful-island-where-tales-began.html

    Black Cat had suffered similar things togeher with her mother, Li Mei-Xian (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/10/134-no-huang-left-about-li-mei-xian.html). She finally classified herself in 3 modesi/dentifications: witch Black Cat, Christian Huang Ru-Jun, "real" Huang Ru-Jun.

    Normally, she is the mighty witch Black Cat, elegant and capable. She has no weakness-- at least, she hopes so. She wants herself to always maintain her dignity, so she just can let her legs to be immature and girlish and separates them away. They are Alisa & Siren, and they carry unwanted properties away out of Black Cat. When she combines herself with her unwanted properties as a whole, she usually hides whole herself in her realm (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cat-alone-part-witch-black-cat-is.html).

    In her realm, there is another important hidden self of Black Cat, Agatha (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/012-black-cat-alone-part-b-episode-3.html). Black Cat feels hard to face this ego because Agatha was gotten from her hateful farther, Butch van Geel. Butch betrayed Mei-Xian, abandoned her (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html)and cursed her torso. However, Agatha is innocent, and she also shares the same existence with Black Cat. In fact, both Agatha and Black Cat belong to the same one, Huang Ru-Jun, the girl with Black Cat's true name. Agatha represents the pure and innocent part of Huang Ru-Jun's heart (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/06/104-she-is-still-here-about-agatha.html), and Black Cat is in charge of other aspects. Because Agatha is a faithful Christian, Black Cat can't stop their co-owned heart to be Christian despite she isn't (or she hopes herself not). When she lets Agatha dominate her personality, she will not name herself as Black Cat; she's entirely Huang Ru-Jun in such a moment.

    Once Black Cat ever thought that she knew everything about her complex self, but she was wrong. After one strange event (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/05/113b-disappearance-of-black-cat-ii.html), she found that Huang Ru-Jun is just the true one. The real Huang Ru-Jun is a normal girl, not perfect, not smart, her body isn't in a good figure. The previous Huang Ru-Jun is still a modified one, and Black Cat is a postulated state which altered parts of the real Huang Ru-Jun. That is, mighty witch Black Cat is a phantom composed of real Huang Ru-Jun's parts (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/05/113c-disappearance-of-black-cat-iii.html).

    It was a harsh time for Black to accept the fact (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/02/126-encounter-her-true-self-about-black.html). She tried her best to convince herself that the real Huang Ru-Jun is her wonderful true self, or at least, not bad. However, none of real Huang Ru-Jun's parts could reach Black Cat's quality standard. Especially, Black Cat didn't like real Huang Ru-Jun's legs the most. Every time she tried to unleash those true legs from decorated state for accessing them, she always sighed.

    " Chubby and short, with huge feet, oh, not to speak of those tacky sandals. They are my legs? My Alisa & Siren? Kill me please." Black Cat thought. She even pulled one of big toes out and placed it on her hand. "How big and greasy it is, like a sausage, not delicate at all... And, it's mine, wahahaha..."

    Finally, after the event that Jin Chyo-Yue took away Mei-Xian and Black Cat's "Huang" (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2016/08/017a-jin-chyo-yue-rebirth-of-reformed.html), things had been changed. Chyo-Yue brought Huang from Huang Chun-Xiang and the extinguished ancient Huang family, but the real Huang Ru-Jun is a person, a normal girl belonged to the normal world, she will still exist. However, those real Huang Ru-Jun's parts were also affected by the effect. They became beautiful and perfect. For example, legs became long and thin, hands became pretty and delicate; brain became smart, and heart became elegant. When Black Cat tries to access real Huang Ru-Jun's parts again, she finds that it's not easy to distinguish parts which are original ("real Huang Ru-Jun's") or modified ("Black Cat's"). Real Huang Ru-Jun's parts combine with Black Cat's parts smoothly, and Black Cat is confused.

    "??? Who can tell me who am I now? I'm confused!"