130d Mother And Daughter, Yellow Versus Black Part D

First episode:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/06/130a-mother-and-daughter-yellow-versus.html
Previous episode:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/07/130c-mother-and-daughter-yellow-versus.html

    Because of the head's advisement, Black Cat tries to contact and sense Mei-Xian's Huang unwillingly. She stretches out her hand toward the chest of the assembly of Mei-Xian's parts. Black Cat touches the character 黃(Huang) on the chest, then she "enters" Mei-Xian's Huang conceptually by magic.

    Inside Mei-Xian's Huang, there are many fragments and partial or integral symbols of Huang Xian-Mei.Black Cat's conceptual being begins to sift a suitable set from Xian-Mei's "things" for reconstructing the proper integral figure of Huang Mei-Xian. Those things are filled with kinds of exaggerated desires which a normal tacky woman can have. "How disgusting..." Black Cat thinks, " those things aren't elegant at all. Oh, I really don't want to take the word things for describing parts of my mother, but... No, no way , I can't regard Huang Xian-Mei as my mother..." Black Cat feels depressed.

    "Are those things really the same parts of my honorable mother Mei-Xian which are just showing their another side?" Black Cat realizes that, but her heart refuses to accept the fact. "Tacky , vulgar, erotic, and bleeding desires. Oh, I really hate that Huang of my mother, though I also have my own Huang..."

    Anyway, Black Cat has to face the fact. She finally selects a set of parts for forming a representative figure of Huang Xian-Mei and assembles them into a whole reluctantly. Then Black Cat observes that Xian-Mei aside.


    As Black Cat's expectation, the Xian-Mei hastily dresses up herself in a vulgar style, and then she heavily makes up her face. Her feet choose the Huang Xian-Mei's symbol, a pair of typical backless high-heel sandals for themselves. That type of sandals is also the most unwanted one for Black Cat to see her mother to wear. It represents "Huang" of her mother. Xian-Mei's head enjoys too much feeling of being charming and chic, then it jumps away from the body. It pursues vanity. The headless body looks like a broken robot.

    However, while Black Cat looks her unwanted mother's hilarious figure with a disdainful mood, she is also aware of one thing. The headless body isn't chasing it's head, it is chasing the figure of a black cat, and the black cat is Black Cat's black cat, it is Black Cat's thing-in-herself (  https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhspsFmla4cuFE48NM6WqVqCBP_s9eYlYKYy7r3tIvNIvCVFMg3dFHjzvY99ba9sYKQpthrcuXcd3pcpv-kAlZXarGv8RIVudmPLGUn6GxaATHO00uC8TZxfIc3G8mLOvx7w3m7fziHU-o/s1600/CharacterOthers.png ). The body seems to go to serve the black cat.

    Thus, Black Cat finds that though Huang Mei-Xian has many vulgar desires, but she has a true and dominant desire-- she wants to take care of her dearest daughter tenderly. She loves her daughter wholeheartedly!

    Black Cat heart beat speeds up at the moment that she realizes the fact. She is touched by Huang Xian-Mei as her mother, despite she doesn't like to admit that. Black Cat walks to the black cat and brings it to Xian-Mei's body. When the headless body embraces that black cat, Black Cat feels that she is just soaked in the sea of love. The sea is not that clean, not that beautiful, but is warm, vivid and tenderly.

    Black Cat suddenly understands a significant difference between Mei-Xian and Xian-Mei, or Li and Huang. Mei-Xian is a great Taoist, her purpose is the internal true freedom, she wants to reach "the Way". But Xian-Mei is an ordinary woman, she is almost desirous for everything-- being charming, fashionable clothes, sexy figure, decent social position, jewelry, and... and... And the happiness for her daughter.

    For a philosopher, such like a Taoist, it's not easy for she/he to love her/his childs like an ordinary woman does, right?

-TO BE CONTINUED-