704 Captured Flying-Head Monsters

About flying-head monsters(FHM), please read
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/903-flying-head-monsters-there-are-some.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/904-flying-head-monsters-b-not-all-of.html

    Flying-head monsters usually possess huge potential of magic power, so many bad guys try to capture and control them. Sabina is such a pitiful case. A wicked witch kidnapped Sabina many years ago. She envied Sabina's beauty and energetic young body, and she wanted to own that. For her purpose, the witch developed a method for controlling and manipulating FHMs.

    A FHM has the special surreal relation between her headless body and flying head such that she can keep herself in one. The wicked witch found the relation, and she created a spell for forcing that relation to emerge from non-realistic dimension as a visible connection in the reality. For FHMs, that's such an insulting skill that can be used to deny their unites of their existences. The witch's spell will downgrade each of them from one proud FHM to a combination of two separable and interchangeable modules with wire-like connections, like the turret and chassis of a tank.

    However, miserable Sabina can't resist that witch, she even doesn't know that she has been controlled--

    The wicked witch hates her own aged body parts, and she stores them in magical vessels. Usually she just lets her brain act-- her brain had been reformed and fused with useful tissues gotten from supernatural beings. When she wants to manipulate Sabina, she will cast the spell on Sabina, and flies to Sabina's connection. The witch's "hyphae" will touch Sabina's connection and pick transmitted data from it. She will absorb, convert, or fake up Sabina's data between her mind and heart.

    When the witch "enjoys" Sabina's data flow, she can pretend herself as Sabina. She shares Sabina's experience, emotion, affection, and feeling. The witch erases her appearance from Sabina's mind, so Sabina never senses her existence.

    Sabina also doesn't know herself as a flying-head monster, she just regard herself as a human girl that has some magical power. Though she doesn't know her own truth, Sabina often feels that there somehow exists a weird gap inside her. Her self-cognition is just pieced out from nonsense fragments. Sabina doesn't know why...

PS. The witch has another FHM as her servant. She "materialized" the poor FHM's head to be a device used to receive her instructions.

113c The Disappearance Of Black Cat (III)

Previous episode:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/05/113b-disappearance-of-black-cat-ii.html

    As Mei-Xian's recapturing and reconstructing of herself went on (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112d-you-raise-myself-up-iv-episode-123.html), some mutations happened to Huang Ru-Jun. She became aware of her difference with normal people--

    Recently I have a strange feeling. I doubt that I am not just what I think I should be.

    For example, what is this?

    Yeah, it's my torso, I know. But that's not what I mean. I say, I don't really understand it. "My torso" implies it's not me, just a physical part of my body, like spare parts to a machine. However, ridiculously, I do know it's me, and I don't know why.

    When I "observe" my torso, it always acts so robotically such that I think I can find wires and springs from it, but that's it's mask. I am there, not "here". I was generated from the deepest place inside my torso and projected to "here".

    Well, dear myself, if you want to disguise yourself as a biological machine, then I shall open your hatch and click your critical button; if you want to pretend to just be a normal girl Huang Ru-Jun, then I will dig you out of you! I will dismantle you, manipulate you, research you then alter you, till I find my true heart inside you.

    I, give me back to me! I, come out from Huang Ru-Jun! Right now!
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    ............

    What's happened?

    Wow, okay, I know, I already know. Surrounding me, I know there are two realities. Well, that's good.

    When I look at "this side", I will see those imperfect components of me as Huang Ru-Jun showing in front of my eyes, like my silly face, foolish wide head, short legs with bad shape and vulgar feet; however, when I turn back and look at "another side", I can find "another me" there.

    Another me is totally different with this me. That me is taller and slimmer and has a exquisite figure. She is smart, mighty and elegant; she is the one who I want myself to be and waits for me to be her.

    Oh, yes. How can I forget it? That me, her name is Black Cat. I am Black Cat, the mighty witch!

    Welcome back, I.
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    The property of Black Cat had transformed most of Huang Ru-Jun, only her legs remained on the original reality temporarily. Black Cat was watching those legs from another reality.

    I must say sorry to you, legs. I can't admit you as my legs easily; in fact, I even don't want to admit that I have legs.

    That's not your fault, it's mine. I used to view you as the symbol of Huang Ru-Jun, the real but not perfect me. Such that, I put all my unwanted properties into you, and pretend that you're just Ru-Jun's legs.

    However, that's not correct.

    Ru-Jun's legs bear me to exist in the real world, Ru-Jun's feet touch the Earth for connecting me to the rerality. I have to appreciate you, thank you very much.

    You, Ru-Jun's legs, carry Ru-Jun so well, I have seen. Now Ru-Jun is also Black Cat, so please let me take you two to be Black Cat's legs, all right?

    I love you, my legs, Alisa & Siren.
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    Black Cat had taken her entire self back to the reality she exists. She checked each of her own components, and she perceived that those components were all converted form Huang Ru-Jun's. How could she disdain Huang Ru-Jun since she was composed of Ru-Jun's parts? No Huang Ru-Jun, no Black Cat.

    Considered about that, Black Cat decided to "take off" the Black Cat's property from her components before she reformed herself, and then she reassembled those Ru-Jun's parts to be her. That was, Black Cat wanted herself to be Ru-Jun first while she came back to her original reality agin. She shrunk her Black Cat property into her core, the black cat (http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-pseudo-family-black-cat.html).

    I am Black Cat, but I am just the normal girl Huang Ru-Jun now-- even not the "improved" Huang Ru-Jun in this original reality.

    Honestly, I really feel uneasy to be this Ru-Jun, especially when I already recall that I am Black Cat. Being Ru-Jun, I know it's my desire that drives me to become Black Cat to escape from this imperfect normal girl; but even I can be Black Cat, I'm still Huang Ru-Jun.

    I must make up with my real self. Sorry Black Cat, please embrace me even though you don't like how I am; sorry Ru-Jun, please forgive me since I despise you even though I come from you.

    I am so glad to meet you, my dear self, Black Cat/Huang Ru-Jun. Thank you for being me.

113b The Disappearance Of Black Cat (II)

Previous episode:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/04/113a-disappearance-of-black-cat-i-about.html

    Hello, my name is Huang Ru-Jun, a normal 17 years old girl, as normal as you can find everywhere. Although I am a Chinese Taoyundaonian, my family inhabit the Japanese zone from many many years ago. I can speak both Cantonese-Chinese and Japanese, but I score higher in Japanese, and most of my best friends are also Japanese. Sometimes I have the feeling that I am actually a Japanese, though I am not, haha. After all, I'm a Huang, not a Suzuki or Tanaga. My name always shows the difference between I and my friends...

    I am a high school girl, and I study in the Catholic Hanahara girls' high school of home economics-- the school that can be considered as a school for disciplining brides. Well, I'm not smart enough to go to the college. Besides, I have a Catholic family, so it's so natural for my parents to send me into a Catholic school. Of course, I am a sincere Catholic Christian, too. My parents teach me that I shall make myself to be faithful and pure from my childhood, and they help me carefully to keep the Spirit in me.

    However, as a Christian, I still have some surreal imaginations and illusions which aren't that Christian. For example, I have the feeling that there does exist witches and wizards, I don't know why. The weirdest illusional feeling of mine is that sometimes I can "leave" myself, I can observe myself outside me. The scene is so realistic such that I can't judge whether it is true or not.

    In such case, I can see my entire body, and I'm not sure that it is mine. I know that it is Huang Ru-Jun, but what is the Huang Ru-Jun to me? The Huang Ru-Jun consists of short limbs, thick shanks, chubby torso and broad hip, and other things like that. To me, I feel those components of Huang Ru-Jun don't just have their physical meanings, they also form the existence of Huang Ru-Jun.

    I can see this Huang Ru-Jun while she is walking, eating, talking, and even looking at herself. Humph? You say go to the toilet? Oh, don't mention that, please. Can you image the feeling of seeing some ugly thing coming out of your own body? That's very uncomfortable! The most incongruous feeling happens in the time when I go to church. I can see myself when I knee down and pray to the God. I am so religious and joyful when I enjoy the grace of God, and I do know it. But... maybe it's somehow unrespectful to say that, but when I see my heart is given away to others, even it's given to the Father, I still can't feel reconciled about it. I have the subtle emotion of wanting to grab my heart and bring it back to me. That's an incorrect emotion I know, but I can't stop it. Every time when I meet such case, I always cry hard. Dear Father, please forgive me...

    Okay! Stop talking about sad things. Had I said anything about my virtual friend? Sometimes I feel I do see a pair of disembodied legs around me. Those legs are blessed and empowered, they belong to a faithful holy lady, though I don't know who she is. I feel that she should be my best friend, if she really exists.

    Those legs can be the weapon for breaking the evil, can be the crucifix for protecting the good. Their owner is a kind and determinded, she devote herself to expel the demon, and she take care of me very gently. Perhaps she is an imaginary friend of mine, but I cherish our relation very much. If one day I can meet her, I will say thank you very much to her.

    Moreover, I even can see my parts while I still "stick on" myself-- I think those are my parts, don't ask me why. Those parts aren't in the same form of existed ones. For exmple, my virtual legs become long and slim, they are much more beautiful than my real legs.

    It seems that those virtual parts of me can act somehow autonomously. Very strange, isn't it? I will view those virtual parts as parteners of forming me if they are true. They support me in every aspect. It will be my honor of being the one who consists of them. Hey! Parteners! I am so pround of you all, can you come true one day?