112d You Raise Myself Up (IV)

Episode 1,2,3:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112b-you-raise-myself-up-ii-episode-1.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112c-you-raise-myself-up-iii-episode-1.html
   
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Mei-Xian is Mei-Xian after all, the greatest Taoist never would be forever trapped by anyone. The crushed existence of the humiliated Huang Xian-Mei was mapped to another branch of diverse sequences of events automatically to receive repairing from Li Mei-Xian who had never met Feng. Xian-Mei's parts was washed, and her properties were nullified. Spaghetti-strap, short skirt and flashy heeled sandals all were ripped away from Xian-Mei's body, and it started to be decomposed and reconstructed as the original Li Mei-Xian's body.

    Mei-Xian watched her body which was under reconstructing, she had a complicated emotion about herself. There existed many things of herself that she still wasn't conscious of, and she still had hidden complexes(about the Huang's part of herself), lusts and desires that she believed that they were already vanished once. she really didn't understand herself as well as she thought.

    Furthermore, Mei-Xian reminisced what she had experienced on her poor self since hundreds of years ago. She accepted those terrible events happened on herself smoothly for breakthrough of reaching the Way, but had she pushed herself forward too much? How could herself endure so many tortures for accomplishing her purpose? Herself couldn't complain to her, but Mei-Xian knew herself was the only one who kept company with her during her whole journey from the beginning; she should treasure herself.

Mei-Xian was grateful to have herself accompany her.

    Mei-Xian had reassembled and converted her broken self successfully, Huang Xian-Mei had turned back to be Li Mei-Xian, everything seemed to be settled down; Mei-Xian was still that mighty and elegant Mei-Xian, Huang Xian-Mei's tawdriness had not made any influence on her.

    However, did Mei-Xian really let Huang Xian-Mei just disappear and leave nothing behind?

    Sure not. Mei-Xian have learned a lot from Xian-Mei. Now she knows that she has to accept and tolerate everything of herself even it's unexpected. The wicked wizard Feng also had taught her the skill for digging her hidden self out. Usually Mei-Xian's heart will keep Mei-Xian to be graceful and elegant, but she can manipulate her own heart to let it allow for transforming of herself now.

    Before a transformation, Mei-Xian will project her mind to form a virtual projection. She can't manipulate her own heart, but the virtual projection isn't her. Her mind is regarded as it's asking for manipulating "a heart", and the virtual projection will be regarded as another one whom is manipulating Mei-Xian's heart. That's Mei-Xian's new way for liberating Xian-Mei from her existed frame!

Manipulating her own heart for transforming herself.

    As a Chinese proverb says: "A mountain seen is a mountain being, a mountain seen is no mountain being, a mountain seen remains a mountain being. (見山是山,見山不是山,見山還是山)". Mei-Xian thought that she must terminate unstable distorted properties of herself to find and manifest her essential property of her eternal entity at first, but she understands that those unwanted properties aren't perturbations which dust her true entity; they are also parts of her and she has to keep on going with them on the road of reaching the Way.

    This time, Mei-Xian will rise herself up!

112c You Raise Myself Up (III)

Episode 1&2:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112b-you-raise-myself-up-ii-episode-1.html
 
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Mei-Xian's new integrated body was forming, all of her parts was gathering together. While her body was almost completed, Mei-Xian's head separated from her body. She looked at the cross-section of her neck and noticed that her internal was rolling in the deep. It was because properties of original Mei-Xian were still struggling against the new Mei-Xian. To them, the new Mei-Xian is way too vulgar and lustful so that is totally unacceptable. However, they were powerless to resist.

    When Mei-Xian's unrestful internal finally calmed down, her desires were crystallized into a snake-like being. It was used to link new Mei-Xian's mind with her nature of being a human female, as the snake connected Mei-Xian's head with her own body.

Mei-Xian looked at the forming of her new self with smile.

    Mei-Xian smiled at the wizard, and asked: "Well, the new me is almost completed. Since I am transformed for you, at least, would you tell me about yourself and why did you do that before I recombine with my body to become the me you want?"

    The wizard sighed deeply with grief. He told Mei-Xian about his story. The wizard was once a Taoist actually, his name was Feng Yi-De(馮 易德), and he was even older than Mei-Xian. Feng's father came the Li's Taoist family, and he became a son-in-law and lived in his wife's home, so Yi-De inherited his mother's surname, Feng. But Feng Yi-De still viewed himself as a member of the glorious Li's family, and he entered the Li's family and became a disciple to learn Taoism while he grew up.

    Mei-Ling (Mei-Xian's previous name) was a famous talent even while she was very young, and her personality was deemed to be perfect as a great Taoist by members of the Li's family. Such a wonderful girl would become the symbol of the Li's family in the future, and Feng was also very proud of Mei-Ling. "I have the same blood with her!" Feng always thought so, and he was deeply attracted when he met Mei-Ling. It could be said that Feng would sacrifice himself for Mei-Ling if needed. She was his queen, his goddess.

    However, Feng's heart was torn when she knew that Mei-Ling's mother came from the Huang's Taoist family. Feng's maternal grandmother was also a Huang, and he hated her very much. His maternal grandmother was selfish and sanctimonious, and she often went mad easily. To Feng Yi-De, that was also the standard image of the whole Huang's family, so that his maternal grandmother was the sinner who brought the despicable blood to him. Feng cursed that blood everyday, and he tried to pretend that he was totally unrelated with it. Mei-Ling was his atonement, her perfectness rescue Feng out from the hateful reality. So when Feng knew that Mei-Ling's mother was also a Huang, his self-esteem was thoroughly demolished. He left the Li's family and went to find the darkest side of the world, finally he became a wicked wizard.

    Several years ago, Feng found that Mei-Ling had turned herself to be Mei-Xian, his dry heart was excited gain. Mei-Ling was a gifted perfect girl, but Mei-Xian is an elegant wonderful lady! Feng started to collect information about Mei-Xian. When he knew what Mei-Xian had experienced those days, he was enchanted by but also felt disgusted at the same one. What a conflicting woman! The affection made Feng feel uneasy, he decided to resolve it.

    Feng's idea was transforming this Mei-Xian to be another Mei-Xian who is not as high-class as the Mei-Xian right now. He wanted vulgar emotions and lusts arise from Mei-Xian again, such that he could make Mei-Xian tawdry. Feng needed to manifest properties of the Huang's on Mei-Xian so that he could have the same corrupted part with Mei-Xian had. Yes, he loved Mei-Xian, but the one he loved had the composition he hated in her existence, so he wanted to taint his lovable one. It's such an exciting idea to Feng.

    After conversation, the new Mei-Xian had a twisted emotion about Feng and herself right now. "What the hell! He made me to be a woman he despises!" Mei-Xin thought. But this Mei-Xian was also the one who Feng loved her to be. Mei-Xian humphed and said: "Well, that's fine. Since this me makes the Huang's composition of me to be significant, so this me shall not be Li Mei-Xian anymore. I will take Huang as my surname, and my name will be Xian-Mei (仙美, Heavenly Beauty) for meeting the property of this flashy me as you wish. Humph!"

    Feng laughed out loudly. "Ha! Ha! Huang Xian-Mei, right? okay! This name fits you really well! Now come back to your body such that Huang Xian-Mei can come to this world! Go!"

    The crystallized snake stretched to Xian-Mei's head, and she felt that her mind and heart were reconnecting each other. A new she was forming, she would be a completed flashy girl Huang Xian-Mei soon--

Hello world! Huang Xian-Mei is here!

    "Wow! This is the new me? Interesting! Feng, your wish is realized now, what will you do with this despised girl but you love next?"

    Feng Hugged Huang Xian-Mei, teardrops slid out of his dried-up eyes. He kissed every part of Xian-Mei's body, then he held Xian-Mei up and say: "Xian-Mei, I... I want to... DEMOLISH YOU! Crush! Hahaha!"

    Xian-Mei was frozen suddenly, then her existence was erode from internal by lusts and emotions which embodied by Feng's spell. An evil flower made from her desires of being pretty and charming bloomed on her neck top, and her mind was repelled by her body. All of her parts were monsterlized, and Feng sent demolished Xian-Mei to a forbidden cave.

Monsterlized Huang Xian-Mei walking in the cave.

    "Great! Huang, you fits this disgusting cave the best! My real wish is to expel you from my honorable Li Mei-Xian, but that's totally unreasonable! You don't deserve the Li's glory, living with monsters is your future!"

    Later Feng left the cave. He exhausted all of his energy, and he was satisfied since he had spoiled his lovable traitor's existence. He died in the same day.

112b You Raise Myself Up (II)

Episode 1:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2015/01/112a-you-raise-myself-up-i-about-li-mei.html
 
    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    After receiving the wizard's wish, Mei-Xian's existence was broken into pieces, and a wicked deity emerged from them. The deity picked up some of those pieces of Mei-Xian and began to decompose them. When he was decomposing a piece, he was also casting a new piece made from decomposed piece gradually. Those new pieces of Mei-Xian owned different proclivities compared with old ones'. Mei-Xian never thought that proclivities of herself could be changed such easily, she was in a panic. She was especially shocked when the deity transformed her classical formal hi-heel into a flashy sandal. While Mei-Xian's foot was put into that sandal in poor taste, she was frightened.

    "Do you... really want me to be... such a woman? I'll be totally changed, and the Mei-Xian you like will be cancelled. WHY??" Mei-Xian expressed her concerns to the wizard by her eyes, she begged him to stop.

    However, the wizard didn't stop his wish. The deity called Mei-Xian's heart out and enchanted it. The wizard's wish became a virtual wicked cross and it was attached on Mei-Xian's heart, he took use of the christianity of Mei-Xian's torso. The wicked cross worked like the password of Mei-Xian's heart, it accessed and altered Mei-Xian's emotions and affections without any resistance. Mei-Xian had nothing to do with her captured self, she could just wait and see what would happen to her next.

Transformation of some pieces of Mei-Xian's existence.

    When the deity completed transformation of all selected pieces of Mei-Xian, he disappeared. Mei-Xian's converted heart started to emit magical power automatically to connect Mei-Xian's transformed pieces. Mei-Xian's mind was also reconstructed out of her dried-up original head, so she could turn to receive her transformation happily. She noticed that her unknown another side of female nature was extracted out and formed a virtual female figure. Mei-Xian smiled at that, she knew that was the naughty girl hidden inside her.

Mei-Xian's transformed pieces got to connect with each other.

    The girl-like figure flied into the center of the Mei-Xian right now, then a torso-like figure emerged between Mei-Xian's transformed pieces. The new Mei-Xian was forming, and existences of those un-transformed pieces were attracted to the new Mei-Xian for completing her--

Forming of the new Mei-Xian.

    "Wow~ Nifty spaghetti-strap and naughty short skirt! And don't forget wild heeled sandals! Those things will dress up my body parts and become their properties, such that I will become a pretty and sexy lady! I do wanna go bad and can't wait for the completing of new me longer!"

112a You Raise Myself Up (I)

    About Li Mei-Xian, please read:
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/black-cats-legendary-mother-black-cats.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html
http://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/009-freedom-with-internal-conflict.html

    Transmitting of Mei-Xian's legs was intercepted while she traveled to another world. Existences of her legs were projected to the place differed with where she wanted to embodied her body. And quickly, Mei-Xian felt that the operating of her heart and mind got disturbed. She became girlish and caring about her look. That was such an amazing change because Mei-Xian had reached the Way(Tao) long time ago and her ego was very stable. Because the state of herself was altered and in a chaos, Mei-Xian had to let Mei-Ling, her another property arise from her ego to deal with the event.

    Mei-Ling detected those lost legs, and soon she found them. When she arrived the place, Mei-Ling met a weird wizard. She surprisingly found that her high-heels were transformed to be flats by the wizard, and it affected her personality.

    Mei-Ling started to talk to the wizard. He said that he had known Mei-Xian for a long period of time, and she meant a lot to him. He told Mei-Ling that he knew Mei-Xian's formal and elegant high-heels had the symbolistic influence on the dignity of Mei-Xian's ego, so he transformed them to be flats for lighting Mei-Xian's personality and awaking her girlish heart.

    "You make it. Myself starts to change hairstyle and look herself in the mirror. My heart ripples because a warm current is coming from my feet, and each of my parts is enjoying the feeling. Congratulations, you do raise myself up," Mei-Ling spoke to the wizard, "thank you for treating my legs gently, would you please to give them back to me? For exchange, I will grant you a wish."

Mei-Ling is talking about the state of herself to the wizard.

    The wizard told Mei-Ling that he did have a wish about Mei-Xian and Mei-Xian really had the ability to make it, but he didn't think that Mei-Xian would like to realize that wish.

    Mei-Ling sensed that the wizard held a special affection toward herself, and he had opinions on existing properties of Mei-Xian. Mei-Ling was curious about it, and she also needed to get her legs back. She told the wizard that if he returned her legs back to reassemble Mei-Xian and restore herself completely, then she would open her existence to the wizard. Therefore the wizard could write his wish on Mei-Xian's directly.

The wizard formed his wish as a quill pen and sent it to Mei-Xian's internal existence.

    "Now it's my chance," the wizard thought, " Mei-Xian, you are the Mei-Xian whom I admire and respect, but you aren't the Mei-Xian that I want you to be. I want you to become the female that I don't like you to be such that your divinity in my heart will be neutralized, thus I can enjoy that you. I will raise you up again!"