Night fell, stars dotted the sky. In a secluded valley in the back mountains of the Yue family, a renowned family of immortal cultivators, a slender figure sat cross-legged. The girl was around ten years old, her skin fairer than snow, her features as beautiful as a painting. A faint golden halo surrounded her, a symbol of condensed, pure immortal energy. She was Yue Huangying(岳 黃英,黃英 means "yellow blooms"), the Yue family's proud genius girl.
At this moment, Yue Huangying was immersed in deep cultivation. Her consciousness, like invisible threads, extended outwards, trying to capture the elusive truths of the Great Dao. She gently raised her hand, and brilliant immortal light flowed from her fingertips, sometimes transforming into sharp sword energy that cleaved through the void, and sometimes condensing into gentle rain that nourished all things. To master such a diverse range of immortal techniques at her age was a testament to her extraordinary talent.
Even more remarkable was Yue Huangying's understanding of Daoist philosophy. Her comprehension of Yin and Yang, the Five Elements, and the cycle of heavenly laws had already surpassed that of many seniors who had cultivated for years. Her insights often struck at the very essence of things, as if only a thin veil separated her from the Great Dao, within easy reach.
However, no matter how hard she tried, no matter how much her strength improved, that thin veil always remained impenetrable. The Great Dao was right in front of her, so close, yet always just out of reach, as if an invisible barrier was blocking her.
Yue Huangying opened her clear eyes, a hint of frustration flashing deep within them, almost imperceptible. She knew that the problem likely lay within herself. Her cultivation was nearly perfect, yet there was always a sense of disharmony, a subtle stagnation, like a tiny grain of sand mixed into the gears of a precise machine. This grain of sand, Yue Huangying vaguely felt, was related to a hazy shadow in her memory—her mother.
Her mother had "disappeared" since she could remember. The elders of the Yue family always avoided the topic, their eyes carrying an unspeakable complexity. Her father, Yue Qingyan, had died from cultivation deviation when she was very young. Her memories of her mother were only fragmented pieces, along with the lonely smile on her father's face before his death.
She still remembered when she was little, innocently tugging at her father's sleeve and asking curiously, "Daddy, why is my name Huangying?"
The afterglow of the setting sun fell on her father's face, adding to his loneliness. He looked up at her words, gazed at the gradually darkening clouds in the sky, then turned back to her, forcing a gentle yet lonely smile.
"Huangying ah..." His voice was a little hoarse, as if recalling some beautiful past events, "Daddy loves spring very much. At that time, all kinds of flowers bloom, colorful and vibrant. Especially yellow flowers, you see, there's the warm apricot yellow, the lively goose yellow, they always bring Daddy the power of life. So, Daddy named you Huangying, hoping that you can also be like the yellow flowers in spring, full of beauty."
At that time, Yue Huangying didn't understand the deeper meaning behind her father's smile, she just thought the name "Huangying" sounded very nice. But when she asked further about her mother, her father's eyes dimmed, and he just perfunctorily said that her mother had gone to a faraway place. And the others in the Yue family always had a subtle, strange look on their faces, vaguely avoiding her questions.
As she grew older, Yue Huangying gradually sensed the Yue family members' unspoken secret about her mother. They seemed to deliberately avoid the topic, their eyes always carrying a hint of pity and unease that she couldn't understand. Intelligent as she was, she slowly stopped asking. She told herself that as long as she cultivated diligently enough and reached the Great Dao in the end, all questions would be answered.
However, when her cultivation reached an extremely high level, she felt an unprecedented resistance. Her Daoist skills were nearly perfect, but they seemed to be stuck by something deeply rooted in her essence. The feeling was very peculiar, as if she wasn't a complete individual.
Once, during an extremely deep cultivation session, Yue Huangying tried to disassociate herself and feel the origin of all things. Just as her consciousness was about to merge into the void, she suddenly felt that her legs, which originally carried her light existence, seemed to bear immeasurable suffering. That sorrow and despair didn't belong to her, yet she couldn't separate herself from it. And her wisdom and knowledge were "borrowed" along with her head, absorbed by a force from an unknown source, as if only to satisfy some indescribable demand. As for the emotions and instincts deep within her heart, they coldly watched all of this, like an irrelevant bystander.
Yue Huangying suddenly pulled herself out of that strange state, a strong sense of unease rising in her heart. She realized that she didn't completely control her own existence. Having made up her mind, she created a special Daoist technique, trying to communicate more deeply with her own being.
Several days later, Yue Huangying completed the Daoist technique. She closed her eyes and visualized herself in her mind. This "self" reached out and gently took off her head, holding it up to manipulate it, so that the self-awareness it carried would no longer cover her body. This allowed her body to break free from the constraints of being Yue Huangying, freely interact with the world, and release all its hidden information.
While observing herself, Yue Huangying was surprised to find that her composition was not a unified whole, and there was some inherent disharmony. Beneath her appearance as the Yue family's genius immortal cultivator girl, there seemed to be something else hidden. A strong desire grew in her heart; she had to undertake a thorough "deep dive" into herself to explore the root cause.
After a period of preparation, Yue Huangying finally made up her mind. She focused her mind and elevated her cultivation to the extreme. Her consciousness was highly concentrated, like a sharp blade, ready to cut through the fog that shrouded her.
She began to perform the dangerous Daoist technique. In her visualization, the head representing her identity as Yue Huangying slowly separated from the body representing her true being and heart. Then, she ventured to dismantle the Taiji, formed by her pure Daoist cultivation and symbolizing the unity of her mind. The Taiji slowly rotated, and the Yin and Yang components that constituted it gradually separated, creating a deep rift between them. As the two components separated, Yue Huangying's self-awareness and her inner self completely parted ways.
Yue Huangying's head turned into a soulless, precise machine, executing the plan exactly as she had conceived it beforehand, unleashing immortal techniques without restraint on her headless body. These immortal techniques were like invisible hands, forcibly opening the torso that represented the core of her being, extracting from it rays of brilliant light, which were information about her existence—narratives of her essence, memories, emotions, and experiences. This information condensed in the air, eventually transforming into an ancient and simple book, slowly forming on the legs that were responsible for carrying her existence. Yue Huangying's "head" began to read this book that recorded her self. The pages turned silently, and lines of tiny characters flickered like starlight. When she turned to the page recording her mother, a line of blurred handwriting entered her sight: "Mother: Huang."
The character "Huang" in her mother's surname was deliberately blurred, as if trying to conceal something. But even so, Yue Huangying still recognized it through her deep self-examination. It turned out that the character "Huang" in her name was not only the color of flowers as her father had said, but also came from her mother's "Huang."
Moreover, her mother's "Huang" was not ordinary; it was filled with an extraordinary aura. Her mother was no ordinary woman with the surname Huang; her "Huang" had characteristics that were too self-assertive. It was clear that her mother came from another immortal cultivation family, the Caotou Huang family.
The Huang family, who dominated Caotou, did not have a good reputation in the immortal cultivation world. If not notorious, they were at least controversial. They seemed to have little interest in pursuing the Heavenly Dao, but they had an almost fanatical pursuit of the power of immortal techniques. They believed in the supremacy of strength and used it to exchange for fame, status, power, and wealth. In addition, the Huang family's methods of exterminating demons were extremely violent and cruel, often criticized by other immortal cultivation families. Towards those immortal cultivation families weaker than them, the Huang family was even more extremely snobbish.
The Yue family, as a leader in the immortal cultivation world, had always kept the Huang family at a distance, regarding them as representatives of vulgarity. However, the Huang family tried every means to please the highly esteemed Yue family, trying to get close to them with excessive flattery. Yet, the rising star of the Yue family was actually born to a mother from the Huang family, which was undoubtedly a great irony for the Yue family. The nearly perfect talent for immortal cultivation and personal traits that Yue Huangying possessed were actually nurtured by an existence that the Yue family viewed as full of vulgarity, snobbery, and cruelty. How could the Yue family accept this?
Yue Huangying also knew that the Caotou Huang family had offended too many enemies and had been wiped out by allied hostile forces several years ago. Was her mother still alive in this world? Yue Huangying had no idea. She let her body reach out and gently stroke the mottled and blurred character "Huang" on the page. An unspeakable sense of resonance surged from the depths of her body. Yes, her name also had a "Huang," and her blood also flowed with the bloodline from that Huang family.
She could choose to seal all of this away and continue to be the flawless genius immortal cultivator girl of the Yue family, enjoying the admiration and expectations of everyone. However, how could a person who didn't even dare to face their true identity truly reach the Great Dao? Yue Huangying knew very well that she couldn't bypass reality. She had to let the part of her existence that came from the Huang family emerge from the dust to explore the truth about herself.
After the Daoist technique was completed, Yue Huangying returned to her original state. She gently stroked her chest, closed her eyes, and looked inward, feeling the other half hidden within her body. The Huang family's traits had not been "activated" before, but after being recognized, they began to surge beneath her calm exterior. She felt the desire for power, the ambition for worldly authority, and the ruthless decisiveness when facing things she disliked. The time had come for her to truly become a "Huang family member" once. Yue Huangying carefully considered and planned the steps to transform herself, collecting the necessary items and creating the required Daoist techniques.
After some more time, Yue Huangying had done everything she needed to do, so she loosened the reins on her nature and let it guide her. She slowly got up, took off the clothes she usually wore as a genius immortal cultivator girl, and put on attire suitable for the Huang family's traits. A pearl-colored silk dress, intricate gold ornaments transformed into blooming flowers, setting off her originally delicate face with a hint of enchanting charm. She looked in the mirror and carefully applied makeup. The rouge and eyeshadow on her face were a departure from her usual bare face, and her eyes and brows carried a hint of sharpness and allure.
Just as she finished dressing, Yue Huangying clearly felt the part of her that had been sleeping was completely awakened. Her mind, which should have been as calm as water, was now like a raging fire, churning within her. She stood up, glanced at the elegant embroidered shoes she usually wore, and turned to slip her feet into sandals from the Huang family. Her jade-like toes peeked out from the front of the crystal-clear shoes, as if declaring that she was no longer bound by elegance, wantonly flaunting her existence.
"Strike while the iron is hot!" Yue Huangying whispered, her fingers forming a hand seal, and cast a spell on herself again, reconstructing the essence of her being. Just as the immortal technique took effect, an unspeakable sense of strangeness washed over Yue Huangying. Her head seemed to be ejected by an invisible force, with only a wobbly, spring-like connection remaining between it and her body. She found that she had lost the dominance over her self-definition. The genius girl who represented the Yue family's glory was only remembered in her head, attached to her foundation made up of the Huang family's bloodline. The demands from the depths of her being solidified into illusory hands, pulling her forward. Yue Huangying didn't know where she would be taken, she could only let herself be manipulated.
As she walked, the figure symbolized by the illusory hands gradually became concrete, forming the illusion of a woman. This was the embodiment of the Huang family's lingering thoughts establishing a connection with her through her mother. The illusion reached out and gently stroked Yue Huangying's body, then gently opened her chest, took out the "Huang" character from the page about her mother in the record of her existence, and embedded it into Yue Huangying's heart, putting a hand on her shoulder, welcoming her "return."
Yue Huangying's existence was completely reshaped. Her "Yue" no longer held meaning. Her name became the simplest two characters—Huang Ying, surname Huang, given name Ying.
Huang Ying returned to the Yue family and calmly informed her bewildered family members that she would be leaving for a while and would return after dealing with some matters. The elders of the Yue family felt an aura emanating from Huang Ying that was completely different from before. It was an aura filled with desire and temptation, carrying a hint of elusive danger. Their proud, flawless little princess was gone. Realizing the complex situation Huang Ying faced, although their hearts were filled with questions and unease, they could only helplessly watch her leave.
Following the pull of her Huang family roots, Huang Ying traveled a long distance alone to the ruins of the Huang family manor. The former prosperity had long since turned into a scene of broken walls and rubble, with only weeds swaying in the wind, telling tales of past glory and decline. Huang Ying wandered through these ruins, carefully feeling what it meant to be a Huang family member.
Yes, at this moment, she could clearly feel that pursuit of a gorgeous appearance, that attitude of flattering superiors at all costs, and the contempt for the weak and those inferior to her. A cruel thought of wanting to completely eradicate the existence that disgusted her also surged in her heart. The so-called perfection, the so-called calm elegance, nobility, and benevolence, now seemed somewhat hypocritical in her eyes. These beautiful qualities were all built upon the foundation of ordinary and desire-filled human nature.
However, Huang Ying did not deny Yue Huangying because of this. Who said that people with ordinary human nature are not qualified to strive for peace, elegance, nobility, and benevolence through hard work? She believed that to reach the Great Dao, she had to be able to accept all of herself, including those less glamorous parts, whether she liked them or not.
Huang Ying found the underground dojo hidden beneath the ruins of the Huang family. She stood with her hands down, activating the facilities in the dojo with magic, causing it to decompose her existence and immerse each part in the lingering thoughts of the Huang family. Her right foot left first, stepping on a treasure pot shimmering with dazzling light, symbolizing the Huang family's strong desire for wealth; her left foot bore a golden token, representing their relentless pursuit of power; a gorgeous crown was placed on her head, symbolizing their craving for fame; and her body was hung high in mid-air, her hands hanging down limply, as if accepting this transformation without resistance.
At this moment, although Huang Ying had completely accepted the traits of the Huang family, the self-awareness belonging to Yue Huangying still existed in her head. That once near-perfect girl quietly watched her disassembled self, her heart filled with mixed emotions.
When Huang Ying walked out of the ruins of the Huang family manor again, she was already a complete "Huang family member." When she raised her head, examining the surging desires and emotions within her, she felt the lingering thoughts and wishes of the Huang family lingering around her, sometimes enthusiastically inviting her to integrate into them, and sometimes with a hint of mockery, whispering questions to her: Are you still that noble Yue family member? Aren't you actually one of us? The Huang family's twisted feelings towards the Yue family even made Huang Ying feel an absurd sense of inferiority towards Yue Huangying, as if her former self was both an object of worship and an object of jealousy.
Huang Ying tasted this strangeness, remaining silent, her heart already having a clear goal. She allowed herself to become a Huang family member not to indulge in their desires, but to better understand them, understand her mother, and thus understand herself. She returned to the residence she had when she was Yue Huangying. At this moment, her "Huang" was completely formed, filled with the lingering thoughts and information of the Huang family. She carefully took out the "Huang" character originating from her mother from her body, preparing to reconstruct her projection in the real world.
Because Huang Ying's understanding and knowledge of her mother were already very complete, the reconstruction process was quite smooth. Her mother's limbs and components were projected one by one according to the appearance Huang Ying had conceived; and her mother's personality projection gradually formed, watching her own body parts being created and assembled by her daughter in order. Her daughter's gentle and emotionally rich spiritual power wrapped around her soon-to-be-formed body through magic, causing her to feel shy.
As the reconstruction projection process neared completion, a soft light illuminated the room, and the figure of a woman with a gentle smile slowly emerged. Huang Ying finally got to see the face of her mother, whom she had never met. "Mom..." Huang Ying whispered, her eyes slightly wet. She and her mother's projection embraced and wept, pouring out the words of longing that had never been conveyed.
Her mother's original name was Huang Chunxiang (黃 春香,春香
means "smells of the spring"). Although she came from the Huang family, known for its toughness and ruthlessness, her personality was gentle and kind. She possessed innately powerful spiritual energy, but because she couldn't bear to harm living beings, she was unable to fight and was considered an anomaly by the family. Ultimately, she was expelled from the Huang family and even stripped of the Huang surname. During her wanderings after losing her surname, her mother silently used her spiritual power to care for the weak and transform those demons who had lost their minds. By chance, her mother rescued Yue Qingyan, who was seriously injured in a battle with demons. Yue Qingyan was deeply attracted to her and pursued her passionately, which led to the birth of Yue Huangying. Unfortunately, the spiritual energy contained in the Yue family's bloodline was incompatible with the physical characteristics derived from the Huang family, leading to a difficult labor. Chunxiang faced a dilemma. To save her daughter, she sacrificed her physical body and passed away after giving birth to Yue Huangying in the spring when all things flourish. Yue Qingyan and Chunxiang didn't have time to hold a formal wedding, so Chunxiang didn't marry into the Yue family, and the Yue family, due to various considerations, didn't leave a record of her position in the family. Yue Qingyan was very sad, deeply feeling that he had let her down, and also regretting that he didn't have the chance to give her the Yue surname, making her Yue Chunxiang. The inner trauma also caused Yue Qingyan's cultivation to not enter a suitable state, leading to cultivation deviation and the recurrence of old injuries, and he passed away in just a few years. Yue Huangying understood that the name her father gave her was to commemorate her mother, who fell like a yellow flower in spring—so beautiful, so short-lived, so fragile.
Huang Ying reconstructed her mother's projection. Through reuniting with her mother, her heart felt like the clouds had parted to reveal the sun, and all her confusion and entanglement vanished. She mended the previously unnoticed cracks in her own existence and understood her own composition. She entrusted her "Huang" to her mother's projection (in essence, the projection was also composed of her existence, a part of her). Her main body could be said to no longer have the surname Huang, reverting to Yue Huangying, a Yue family member who had completed her own "Huang." Her composition was still complex, still full of contradictions, still had internal conflicts, but these were all parts of herself that she could get along with and treat well. Vulgarity, snobbery, resentment, and various desires—Yue Huangying would fully experience and savor these components of herself, advancing towards the Great Dao with the pursuit of truth. In this process, no part of herself could be abandoned.
The season came to spring again. Following her mother's projection forward, the Yue family's genius immortal cultivator girl was fully restored. As she walked, she felt so happy—yes, if she didn't have human desires, where would her happiness come from?