172b  Ayase & Mei-Xian: Self-Battling (II)

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    Furthermore, Ayase finds that not only she doesn't own herself, she also means nothing really important to herself. She's a robot made by the Oumae factory, and her ego has been set to follow spiritual instructions. Even she is a special one, a robot will never be important. Herself is only responsible for to its abstract owner, the assumed Amakusa Shiro which doesn't really exist, not her.

    As the "queen", Ayase has liberated as many Oumae family members as she can. The Oumae family still owns a lot of incomplete body parts, and some of them has been adapted for making useful instruments or devices. They are deemed as objects, not individuals. However, Ayase senses that herself also doesn't value herself as an individual. If necessary, she is also an object, or objects. Ayase often disintegrates herself and goes into stocks of those refitted body parts to challenge herself:

    "What do I mean to you, my dear me?"

    Sadly, herself never gives any response to her heartbreaking questions. Her heart belongs to the entire family and has to carry the hope and desires of the Oumae family, it has no personal space for her own emotions and affections.

    Ayase has the crown, but it belongs to herself, not her.

---TO BE CONTINUED---