146a The Forbidden Zone (I)

This story follows 137 "Search For Imperfection":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.com/2017/11/137-search-for-imperfection-this-story.html

    Mei-Xian doesn't want herself to be perfect, she needs to experience anything about all of herself, even it may bring pain, shame, internal conflict or sadness to her. However, she couldn't find the way to experience her Huang. To break through obstacles, Mei-Xian turned back to do the basic and thorough research on herself. She projected her ego out of her as Mei-Ling such that she could 'do something' to herself.  Mei-Ling assumed her original self as a machine by surreal means, then she disintegrated her own internal composition from outside.

    Mei-Ling damaged herself by activating negative spiritual items (like vanity, jealousy, greed, vulgarity...) for break her perfection. It didn't last long because herself would be fixed together with her perfection automatically, but that's enough. Her internal elements would be disassociated such that she could take them out of herself for a while. They were in the shape of machine parts. Mei-Ling seized her internal parts and tried to reforge them for awakening her Huang part by part. However, soon she found that the central dogma of her existence had been rewritten without acknowledging herself. In short, Mei-Xian's Huang came from her mother, Huang Chun-Xiang, so she has to access her Huang through her mother, but her metaphysical link to her mother was frozen.

    Mei-Xian was so astonished. No one can 're-code' her existence to freeze the surreal link between her and her mother except her mother, and her mother was gone (of course, Mei-Xian doesn't know anything about Jin Chyo-Yue). So, Mei-Xian was stopped here?

    No, no way. Mei-Xian always needs and will accept all of herself, no matter good or bad. If she can't access her Huang through her mother, why doesn't she try another way through her other ancestors? Even her mother's Huang was given by her mother's parents.

    Normally Mei-Xian can't link her existence to Chun-Xiang's parents or ancestors directly since Chun-Xiang was expelled by the ancient Huang family. That means Mei-Xian hadn't been spiritually recognized as one of descendants of the Huang family. Also, Chun-Xiang hadn't told Mei-Xian anything about the Huang family when she was alive. However, the existence of the ancient Huang family is still significant in Taoyundao nowaday even the family was extinguished. Mei-Xian obtained an amulet from the ancient Huang family which still kept weak spiritual existence of Huang, and she made a magical mask for embodying that spiritual existence. Then Mei-Xian deactivated her head for ceasing her identity as a Li which was running in her brain and installed the mask on her body. The mask simulated her ancestors of the ancient Huang family, then it began to search and take over Mei-Xian's Huang.

    'Pia~' The mask forced Mei-Xian's body to open, and it manipulated Mei-Xian's Hunag to kick out Mei-Xian's Li. Mei-Xian's Li was compressed into a gear, and that gear was thrown away from the hole in Mei-Xian's central body. The running of Mei-Xian was stopped...

-TO BE CONTINUED-