140 Thank You Very Much

About Huang(Li) Chun-Xiang, please refer to "The Filthiest Holy Lady":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2014/05/the-filthiest-holy-lady-and-her.html

Also, about days before her latest moment, please read "The Smell Of Spring":
https://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/09/132a-smell-of-spring-i-about-huangli.html
https://taoyundao.blogspot.tw/2017/09/132b-smell-of-spring-ii-previous.html

    Chun-Xiang finally arrived her end. She was going to die. She cut more than a half of her hairs for weaving amulets which were used for protecting herself, but it just could mitigate the worst situation that she was in. Her poor body was almost broken. Time for her to say good bye to herself.

    Chun-Xiang choose a private quiet room. There, she would do her last self-watching. Chuan-Xiang assumed that she was out of herself. She saw her entire body. Without any cover, it lay down in front of Chun-Xiang's eyesight silently. Chun-Xiang wanted to appreciate and apologize to her suffering self. The following paragraphs are words which Chun-Xiang spoke to herself.

    Hello, Chun-Xiang, my dear self. I haven't seen you in this way until now. This is the first time that I can watch you so closely, my closest partner.

    For me, you already has suffered too much. I have to apologize for it. Because of me, many sorrowful and hostile spiritual beings went into me... oh, here I shall you. Look, you are almost disintegrated...

    I am so sorry, Li Chun-Xiang. Or shall I call you Huang Chun-Xiang?

    Li or Huang, I don't know. I was expelled from the Huang family and accepted by the Li family. Honestly, I don't really like traits of the Hunag family, and the Li family is so glorious. Ripping my Huang away and covering me witch Li isn't a bad thing. Actually, I pretty enjoy that.

    However, I know, you still belong to Huang. As a Hunag, you are made to be desirous for earthly things. Power, reputation, fortune, you like them all. The pure charitable Huang Chun-Xiang isn't a fact. I am kind, but I am still a Huang.

    I put too much expectation on you, and that's too heavy to bear. The Li's virtuous and graceful traits are also not that suitable for being applied on a body made-by-Huang. The essence of you was twisted for my wish.

    But, on the other hand, we have done everything together which we want ourselves to do under our negative natures, isn't it very cool?

    Thank you very much. It's my luck and my honor for having you, my dear self. You also made me a wonderful girl, Mei-Ling, and without you, I couldn't be loved by Yong-Chun.

    I am satisfied, really satisfied. Before our death, I will take "Li" away from you and return it to the Li family. You shall die as a Huang.

    During our latest moment, let's accompany each other. Good night, have a good sleep, Huang Chun-Xiang. See you in next life.
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    Huang(Li) Chun-Xiang died on July 4, 1776.